Wednesday, February 17, 2010

"Hope"

Josh and I are very happy to announce that I'm pregnant! I am due on September 16th, 2010. I will be 10 weeks tomorrow. My little baby is the size of a prune! I have been to the doctor three times and had three ultrasounds. At my first appointment, they couldn't see the baby on the ultrasound so I went back the following week and there he/she was! It turns out I wasn't far enough along the first time to see the baby yet. I was 3-4 weeks and the baby was the size of a poppyseed! When I went back for my two month check-up, the nurse couldn't find the heartbeat with the doppler, so I went for another ultrasound! And there he/she was again! Much bigger than the last time and just a wiggling around. I was 9 weeks and the baby was the size of a green olive! Needless to say, I cried like a baby when I heard the heartbeat! It has been a pretty emotional couple of months. I am so excited to have this little life growing inside of me and I can't help but get excited for what is to come. But it is also very difficult. It is not at all a replacement for Maeson. He is very much a part of our lives and will continue to be. We miss him very much and I think about him and long for him always. I am very nervous about this pregnancy, but I also have a good feeling about it at the same time. My emotions are a wreck right now. I have another ultrasound at my 3 month appointment in March. My doctor wants to do some extensive tests on the baby. This puts me at ease. I know that God's Will will be done with this baby, but I hope that the extra precations we are taking will somehow help. I find myself saying that a lot. "Hope". I am hoping to make it to that 20 week ultrasound, you know, the big one, where they tell you everything is okay. I am hoping for a healthy baby. I hope to be able to enjoy this pregnancy and leave it up to God. This is our "Hope Baby" and I can't wait to see what the future holds.

1 comments:

Rebekah said...

Congratulations! I know this journey isn't easy but I'm glad you're viewing this baby with Hope :)

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